Tonight I setup a new instagram account: upcycling_grief.
This account will visually document the process of transforming Robbie’s stuff into new forms. Currently all his stuff has been sitting in his bedroom for the 5 years since he died. It was 5 years on Tuesday 4 April 2017 – 4 days ago. The energy has stagnated in his room. It’s time to re-energise his stuff.
The first step is to take a pictorial inventory of all his stuff – all the material remains of his existence. This will give me and my daughter the big picture of what we have to work with and listen to what each piece wants to become.
The first item to move on was the biggest and bulkiest and heaviest of all Robbie’s things – the bar that he so proudly designed and built from discarded rusty iron he found in his Dad’s paddock. It has sat on our patio for over 10 years. It has been my pride and joy – so proud of Robbie for building it just for something he got the urge to do one weekend. I thought I would never part from it but it is now in Robbie’s best mates shed waiting for the new deck to be built for its new location. It’s significant this was the first item – being the most cumbersome and heaviest – it went in a flash once the idea emerged so it makes me think the rest will be easy. There is a lightness about this project now the bar has moved on – anything is possible.
Like me, Robbie’s stuff is in the process of ‘becoming’ – neither life nor death – just eternal becoming in the present moment.